Blog Your Heart - February

by - February 14, 2013



Blog Your Heart is a series started by a scrapbooker I adore and admire - Stephanie Howell. Every now and then she blogs her heart and allow us to join her through a linky. The rules of this series are pretty straight forward: -



1. blog whatever is authentic. whatever is truly on your mind and in your heart.
2. it can be serious, silly, short, long. note: no one said it has to be serious. but it should be authentic.
3. no judging allowed no snarky comments, no making fun, no passive agressive digs. if you are going to read the blogs linked below, don't be mean. nothing here is whining. it's me honestly sharing my feelings. if you feel that it's whining, then you don't have to read. :)
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Love and pink hearts are all around today. Though we do not celebrate Valentine's day at home, I love seeing all the cutesy creative stuff that float around in the month of February. All of us love being loved, don't we? Whether it is Valentine's Day or not, being cared for, being remembered is something we cherish and look forward to. 

I feel blessed and happy for all the good people around me. Alhamdulillah. In the past year, I've met a lot of new people (thanks to PPS) and made some good friends along the way. We may not talk for hours on the phone or go for movies together, but I know they are just a phone call away and that is all that matters.

I had made some resolutions for 2013. Many actually. And they were all over the place. So I wrote them in my journal under sub-headings like family, religion, health, personal blog, PPS etc. This has helped me focus on them a lot more than usual. 

For my blog, some of the resolutions I made was to give it a makeover, move to Wordpress, start a Facebook page, share at least two recipes a month, share two layouts a month etc. I knew I was being over ambitious considering the amount of time these things require. However, I would like to think I'am doing okay. I've been blogging a lot lately. Few days back a friend asked me whether I was on a blogathon. haha! I kind of am, right? But I go through this phase every now and then. I blog like crazy for few days/weeks and then I lose steam and ignore it for weeks/months. I think that's okay. It is better if I don't put a lot of pressure on myself. 

I had also promised myself to take care of my mind, body and soul. There were some very hurtful experiences towards the end of 2012 which opened my eyes to a lot of things. I was partly responsible for whatever happened. Whenever a bad thing happens, we cannot blame others or the universe, can we? There are two sides to every story and I knew I had my side, my part. It was a huge learning experience.

As a woman, we have many roles. And the main role we play is that of a 'care taker'. We take care of so many people around us, but do we take care of ourselves? Do we spend time and money on ourselves or only family/friends? (I'am not saying we shouldn't, but we should also spend a bit on ourselves right?) Do we worry so much about impressing others that we turn into someone that we are not? Do we want everyone to like us, so much so that we ignore the hurt and abuse they put us through? We do. Yes, we do. At some part of our lives, we do.  


This year, 2013, I promised to take care of myself. And as a first step, I let go of something that was very close to my heart but wasn't doing me any good. It was emotionally draining. I couldn't handle the stress and pain anymore. I wasn't myself and I couldn't stand it. So I just let go. I closed all the doors so that it wouldn't come back and haunt me. I didn't want any part of it in my life. It was, as they say, 'over'. So over. 

It is really painful and difficult to let go of something that was very close to our heart or something that you really cared about. I'am still getting around to the change. But I must add that I'am happy. I'am happy that I can move on now. I feel free. I can be myself again. I don't have to worry about my opinions not being liked. And that is very important to me - to have my own opinions. I don't like being pushed around and I'am definitely not a doormat. There, I said it out loud. 



I made myself a hot cup of Lentil Soup today :)
The next thing I did (I actually just started) was enroll myself for a Yoga class. Today was the first day. It was really painful and my body is really sore. But it made me so happy. Alhamdulillah. I felt so overjoyed, that I almost cried. I'am so proud of myself for starting something new and giving myself a chance to be happy and free. After a long time, I slept peacefully with a pretty smile on my face (in the afternoon *ahem ahem*). 

That was quite a heavy post. So let me leave you with a cutesy lovey dovey song I found on YouTube.



See you soon Insha Allah and remember to take care of yourself
xxNeelu

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9 comments

  1. Neelu why are you shifting to wordpress..your posts will no longer show up on our dashboards...!

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    1. I'am still thinking about it Dr Sonia. I love how professional and clean WP looks. I'am looking for themes that can be used on blogger but looks very much like WP. ;)

      Good to know you will miss me :D
      Neelu

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    2. Dr Sonia, as you can see, I gave my blog a makeover and I'am not moving to WP. :D ^_^

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  2. Neelu ..what a beautiful and heartfelt post ...loved reading it and i am almost tempted to join in but let's see !! and Like Dr Sonia said even i felt a bit sad about you thinking to shift to word press as i really enjoy seeing all the new post from my dashboard and it could not happen if you were to switch to word press ...but now that I know you are staying with the blogger ..So happy :) ..I love your blogs new look its soo pretty :)

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    1. Thank you Hussena.. I'am not going anywhere :D I love my new blog too, just can't get enough of it. ;)

      hugs
      Neelu

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  3. The new look is very good!! Something about that picture just spreads a feeling of serenity and harmony - earth, sky, water, plant, man and animal all coming together beautifully!! Good luck to you and your blog - take good care of yourself, you deserve it!

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    1. Thank you Fabi. I love it too and I don't think I could have described it better than you. :)

      Thank you
      Neelu

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  4. OH what a lovely post. you sound like such a beautiful person. good luck with everything...and keep being HAPPY. :) xo

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    1. Thank you Stephanie for your very kind words. :)

      xoxo
      Neelu

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