We have been spending final two weeks of December in Kerala for the past three years. It’s a good way to end the year – gives you time to relax, rewind, reflect and make plans for the coming year. For the past couple of years, I’ve been following Ali Edwards’ OneLittle Word. Though I never blogged about my words or documented them in any form, they have had a powerful influence over me. This year, I decided to share my word, as the word itself calls for it. My One Little Word for 2015 is 'Fearless'.
Why ‘fearless’? Though I am mostly an introvert and shy in public, I've been quite bold and brave all my life. However, I seem to have lost that fearlessness and have become slightly timid about the decisions I make, small or big. I am not sure whether it’s my age or experiences or the pressure society (both real and virtual) puts on us. Or maybe, it’s me, getting in my own way.
As a mother of two, a wife, an entrepreneur, a blogger … and a human being, I’ve to be fearless in different parts of my life. To make it easier on myself, I decided to break things down:
If you are a parent, you would know that every child is unique and has his/her own abilities and way of doing things. There is no point in comparing your child with someone else’s or your own. There is no point in worrying about when your child will reach a certain milestone. One should definitely not make decisions for their child based on what others are doing. A mother’s instinct about her child is true almost all the time and it’s time I went back to having faith in myself as a good parent.
I remember the energy and zeal I had when I was putting Pretty Paper Studio together. I had SO many ideas and I worked on most of them really hard. I was raring to go at all times WITH a toddler and a baby in my tow. I have lost some of that braveness. I seem scared even about the silliest of decisions. ‘If I do this, how will it affect our numbers? If do that, what will people think?’ I need to stop thinking that way and go back to where I came from. I started a craft store with a customer base of less than five! Man, I need to buckle up!
When I started blogging, it was because I wanted a space to write. Then it became about good photos, tested recipes, hits and traffic, likes and followers on social media etc. I need to stop worrying and write what I want to write. I may not have the best of photos, I may not have life changing recipes to share and I may not always write with good grammar, but I GOT to write. I have to start believing that there are people out there who love reading my blog no matter what. I have to believe that my story is worth sharing and I definitely GOT to stop worrying about making everything look perfect.
Fearless Human Being
The most important, isn’t it? As much as I would like to separate each parts of my life and try not to mix them with each other, these different parts shape my life and make me the person I am. I have to learn to let go of my fears, self doubts and unnecessary distractions. I have to have more faith in myself and my abilities. I have to 'breathe in my courage and exhale my fear'.
What about you, have you thought of a word for 2015?